Lately I have been hearing some issues about relationships from various friends, it sort of caused me to ponder about their problems and i truly feel for them and try to put myself in their shoes and i feel the pain they had/are going through. So i felt that i have to write this.

One of my girlfriends is currently dating a guy who is probably 7-8 years her senior. I know love has no boundaries, provided the guy isn't a paedophile. Personally, i think older guys will learn to cherish their younger girlfriends better than younger guys, probably bcos of various situations:

1. They are financially stable, and afford to lavish a bit more on the gf.
2. They are probably feeling old and feel tt its time to settle down.
3. The girl's younger, makes him feel younger and happier, so dote on her more loh. (haha)

But then there comes the question of the guy's agenda. Is he really interested in the girl, or is he thinking that xiao mei mei are easier to cheat, so he gave the chase? Supposedly he "sexed" three or four girls before and told her "I'm really in love with you", would you be inclined to jump to the conclusion that he's just trying to find free sex by coating her with sweet words? I dunno about you, but i immediately came to that conclusion. Well, i'm a man-sweeping skeptic after 3 failure relationships with the opposite gender. Sometimes i think guys are jerks. Sorry if i just swept in the good guys, pardon me.

There's a saying, "Women are simple, you treat them nice, and they will do anything for you." Wonderfully said. There's another saying, "Guys use love to get sex, while girls use sex to get love." Sad to hear it but So blatantly true. And also, "Words are Cheap, it doesn't cost you anything". So, can everybody exercise some discernment and not be too caught in people's hollow praises and falsehoods.

WAKE UP UR IDEA LAH! To all the innocent and stupid girls/guys out there! Pls learn to protect urself and dun be afraid to lose out on the chance of another possible relationship, if your mind/heart tells you this guy/girl isn't the right one for you. Why bother to go and bang ur stupid head on the wall, when you know you two aren't tied together by the red string? I believe that no one else can make you complete, except yourself. People love company, they want a future partner to spend the rest of their lives together. But people are just people, they aren't perfect and there are times when you hope you didn't even know them, bcos of the trouble and sadness they brought to ur life. You will definitely love them, but this also means that you gotta bear their nonsense too. If you can't bear that side of them, i think its better that you take a vacation from r/s and learn to love urself, improve urself and find out wut you really want in life.

I just wanna post a question to everybody, if the guy/girl's not a jerk, and he/she's really like 6-10 years older than you, can you accept him/her for who he/she is? And why can you accept him/her?

For me, i think i can accept a guy who is @ max 6-7 years older than me, but he has to have the same religion and same interests as me (anime esp) and not expect me to stay @ home and serve him like a maid. And i'm not going to have kids that quickly either, dun ask me to start a family asap after we get married. I love kids but I got my own life, i got things i want to do and learn. In the past, i sacrificed alot of things in the name of love. I stopped myself from doing time consuming and high commitment ccas and lessons, so that i can spend more time with my ex. But @ the end of it, i realised i was just being stupid, letting time pass just lidat.

of cos, @ the end of the day, i hope i will find somebody who will be willing to be with me and i with him. But i ain't gonna let go of my values, beliefs and change 360 or 180 degrees just for him anymore. This is me, take it or leave it.

Cos love, so many people use your name in vain.
Love, for better or worse, I'll still choose you first.
"Lyrics from JUNE-LOVE"

konnichiwa,
I need a breather...i need more time...i need more slp....i want to watch anime, but i can't! WHY? cos work load is piling up expotentially, design project and lab report to be completed, tutorials and revision to be done asap. exams coming. holidays coming. Intersem coming. Mus clear PE and hopefully can learn Japanese 2 or Korean 1. haha.

Gosh...oh ya, last week, i bought cheap printer cartridges from the school fair. I think i bought 12 cartridges for $20. It was such an irresistible deal tt I sucummeb to temptation. I happily walked around with the cartridges in a plastic bag, (pls, i'm no aunty, although i love shopping) and went for lecture. Apparently i forgot all about the cartridges that were lying on the seat next to me when i went off for other classes. It was only after 4 hours later, when i was walking back to hall, a thought striked me.

"what a deal i had today, 12 cartridges for $20" i tot to myself.
"eh, where's the plastic bag? shit"

I tried to retrace my steps, and i finally decided that i left it in the lecture hall. So i went back to the lecture hall, hoping to see a glimpse of the white plastic bag lying on one of the seats. But, alas, to my disappointment, it wasn't there! I knew it, somebody must have thought today was his lucky day and grabbed the plastic bag and used it!!! so evil!!!!

I began to get angry @ tt person who took my cartridges, and started wondering why some pple just can't return lost items to the lost & found counter and mus claim their ownership to items that aren't theirs. I lost an mp3 player with sony earphones in school before. My fault, bcos it must have dropped on the ground when i took my stuff out, and i didn't notice, until i went home. I lost my ez link card just last year and received an earful from my mother who scolded me for being so careless. But i really dunno where it went to. I lost my cashcard just this month, i was photocopying stuff in the library and forgot to take the cashcard out of the compartment, left it there and forgot all about it, until i realised why is there a card missing in my wallet. Now, i lost my newly bought printer cartridges. Felt like an asshole. Let money fly all over the place just lidat.

I think i prayed to God, asked him if he was really watching over me, then help me get back my cartridges. nah..i was thinking, God wldn't be bothered about a backslider like me, just try my luck.

Den i decided to sms one of my friends who sat behind me during lecture and he offered to help me ask his friends whether they came upon the cartridges. And i dunno if it was God's doing or just fate or coincindence, one of his friends admitted tt he took the cartridges and was willing to buy 6 cartridges from me as he had oredi used one of the cartridge. I think i nv felt so much relief b4, and everybody keep telling me i'm damn lucky tt i managed to trace back my cartridges and that the person was honest and not greedy.

The second anime is "Byousoku 5cm". The art is simple, serene and lovely. It really captivates your heart and moved me to tears.

The setting was probably in late 1980s, when the Internet and mobile phones weren't even available. Two high-school kids met in school, got to know each other better and fell in love with each other. But fate has its way of being cruel to this young couple. The girl had to transfer to another part of Japan which was really far away from Tokyo, and this crushed their dreams of graduating together and going into a new college together. They communicated by writing letters to each other and the boy would actually memorise all the contents of the letters. One day, the boy's family also decided to move to another part of Japan which made the distance between the lovers even further. Then the two lovers decided to meet at the girl's current hometown's train station. The heart-wrenching journey begins as the boy sets off to see the girl, only to be met by obstacles.

This anime has 3 parts, however, only the first part has been subbed. So i dunno the ending, but i was tearing under the cover of darkness, constantly dabbing tissue at my eyes, hoping my make up wldn't run. When the lights came on, I couldn't cry liberally, but I was so embarrassed to let other pple see my tears. My friend who went with me also teared. Maybe she felt the sadness and despair by the author more deeply, because she is currently in a long distance relationship that is plagued with problems that she has no control over.

Long distance relationships aren't easy to handle and can be very tricky if there's no trust and yet both parties dun wanna let go. Anyway, 5cm/s conveyed sadness, despair, loneliness so well that I was so caught up with it. Feeling sad for the boy when things didn't go well and feeling happy when he and the girl finally met. Welcome to the whirlwind of emotions. I guess it reflects reality and augmented sadness, despair and loneliness so beautifully that almost all the girls in there were moved. I dunno abt the guys lah. haha... i like touching animes, if you know more, pls tell me...

As you all know, I'm somewhat an anime enthusiast, luckily not an otaku, cos i prefer watching animes than reading manga. Well, I stumbled upon a new current airing anime titled "Jigoku Shoujo Fukatomori" It practically means Hell Girl-2 Prisoners, which means it is the 2nd season of Jigoku Shoujo. To sum it all, Jigoku Shoujo is a collection of different stories as to why people look for hell girl to get their revenge.


Enma Ai. The childlike protagonist who carries out the torture and vengeance of her client's antagonizer. She has a past, which I'm unsure of bcos I didn't watch Season 1 and i'm freaking intrigued by it. Pls tell me if you know where to get Jigoku Shoujo Season 1. Apparently, she has some special powers and bcos of her power, the pple in village are afraid and probably wanted to sacrifice her to the god of the village. Many things happened after that and probably resulted in the death of her family, village and herself. As a punishment from the village god, she cannot go to hell or heaven, and is bound to this earth for this revenge business. But the strange thing is, her life in the middle place between earth and hell is pretty comfortable. She is always surrounded by beautiful red lilies and the sky is always sunset red and her obachan seems to be such a nice person. She is always seen wearing sch girl's uniform or a very colourful black based kimono when she is on her mission to take away human souls. Her 3 assistants are hone onna, ichimoku ren and wanyudo, who assist her in the pre-death torture of the antagonists and the investigation of the clients' dire situation as to why they wld use jigoku tsushin.

She has a personalised website whereby potential clients have to type in the name of the person they hate. Clients must have enough hatred and willpower to want their antagonizer to die, in order for them to access the website. Enma Ai will show up in front of the client afterwards and give them a straw doll with a red string. If they untie the red string, their enemies will be taken to hell immediately. But it also means that the clients themselves are bound by a contract that is they themselves will have to go to hell after their life is over on earth. This is the restitution that is to be made for pple who seek revenge using the jigoku tsushin (hell hotline).


The anime has a repetitive theme so it may bore pple who are looking for exciting juicy action. But i enjoy it thoroughly although the theme is always about seeking revenge, I get to see how warped the japanese society or humanity really is. Sometimes I dun understand why pple use jigoku tsushin on the people they love and yet hate, esp when they are family members. Beloved yet hated. Could it be that love and hatred originates from the same place (ie human heart) that it is makes it so hard for me to understand why you can love and hate the same person at the same time? Some of the characters really deserve to die, while there are others whereby i think their sins are too mild for them to deserve this kind of instant death.

But i guess this is what interests me. Well, if jigoku tsushin really exists, i wouldn't use it, even if i hate somebody so much that i want him/her to die. I dun wanna have a confirmative chop that says i'm going to hell when i die. Nah, pple who make you hate them so much, seriously dun deserve your attention and i dun wanna suffer in hell with the person i hate. So duh, i rather spend my afterlife with pple whom i like, if i have my choice lah!

If you feel like watching Jigoku Shoujou: 2 Futakomori, log onto www.fansub.tv for bittorrent downloads, their direct downloads are kinda slow, but unless you're in NTU, and using cable with speed as fast as the speed of light, i'm sure you wldn't mind. hurr hurr...

(Jigoku Shoujo Futakomori OP Single)
Vocals: SNoW
Lyrics: Yamano Hideaki
Composition: SNoW & Shinto Yasumitsu


Tell me what time it is now, say that it’s a dream, and embrace me
Ima nanji ka oshiete yume to itte dakishimete

I have recollections of the city of ruins
Inside of the photo album that I flipped through with you
Haikyo no machi ni mioboe ga aru
Anata to mekutta shashinshuu no naka

Why am I alone? I’m alone
I’ll realize that it’s a dream soon, soon
Doushite hitori atashi wa hitori
Sugu ni sugu ni yume nanda to kizuku

I run through the rubble, I kick away something
I wake from a dream, I search for the exit
Gareki o hashiru nanika ketobasu
Yume kara sameru deguchi o sagasu no

I must hurry, I must hurry
Your voice is sounding out from somewhere
Hayaku ikanakya hayaku ikanakya
Dokoka de anata no koe ga shiteru no

I can see eternity
Only within the moving time and nowhere else…
Ugoite iru toki no naka shika
Eien nante mienai n da…

Tell me what time it is now, say that it’s a dream, and embrace me
Move my heart that has started to stop, please
You’re next to me
Probably dreaming a different dream
I don’t need the sun
I’m in love with your smiling face now
Ima nanji ka oshiete yume to itte dakishimete
Tomarikaketa atashi no kokoro o ugokashite onegai
Tonari ni anata wa iru
Tabun chigau yume o mite
Taiyou nanka iranai
Anata no egao ga ima koishikute

I think of you, think of you so much
I found such a me in a dream
Anata o omou konna ni omou
Sonna atashi o yume de mitsuketa no

I want to know more, I want to know more
I want to know more, more about you
Motto shiritai motto shiritai
Anata no koto o motto motto shiritai

I must do it somehow, I must be firm
Painfulness overflows in no matter what kind of world it is
Nan to ka shinakya shikkari shinakya
Donna sekai ni mo setsunasa ga afureru

Time is beloved; somehow it’s beloved
I want to know more about you now
Toki ga itoshii nazeka itoshii
Ima wa motto anata o shiritai

I’d forgotten that if I don’t believe
Then nothing will start
Wasureteta yo shinjinakereba
Donna koto de mo hajimaranai n da

Even for a minute or second, embrace me forever and ever
Please whisper to me that I was only having a nightmare
You were next to me
Surely even now you’re by my side
Even if the alarm rings
Nothing but your voice reaches me
Ippun ichibyou de mo zutto zutto dakishimete
Warui yume o mite ita dake to sasayaite kudasai
Tonari ni anata ga ita
Ima mo kitto soba ni iru no
Araamu ga nattatte
Anata no koe shika todokanai n da

I want to be enchanted
My head hurts
I want to hear things like “I’ll protect you” from time to time
I want to burst
I want to laugh
I want to start it
Toroketai n da
Atama itai n da
“Kimi o mamoru” to ka tama ni wa kikitai n da
Hajiketai n da
Waratte itai n da
Hajimetai n da

Tell me what time it is now, say that it’s a dream, and embrace me
Move my heart that has started to stop, please
You’re next to me
Probably dreaming a different dream
I don’t need the sun
I’m in love with your smiling face now
Ima nanji ka oshiete yume to itte dakishimete
Tomarikaketa atashi no kokoro o ugokashite onegai
Tonari ni anata wa iru
Tabun chigau yume o mite
Taiyou nanka iranai
Anata no egao ga ima koishikute