welcome

It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull

Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue

Can you hear me out there?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me

I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes

But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear

Anyone out there hear me now?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips
and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will

OLIVIA inspi' REIRA (Trapnest)
WINTER SLEEP



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21st bdae part 2
Monday, November 27, 2006 ( 10:17 PM )

21st bdae pics galore

Click on the images for a better zoom in view

my jie mei, brudder and photographer of the day!


E175 unite~

posing nicely for the camera on the bed
daddy and uncle caleb
Jc classmates, wai yee and siyin
hui ching, mei ting and cecilia

waiyee!!!!!
the ever waif like xiao hui with the meaty me...hurrr...next time dun take pic with u le..xiao hui...i look fat beside u!
ah kelvin and me
mummy and aunty phobe

Me with mummy and daddy cutting the cake
trying to do a 1, 2, 5 pose...but somehow 5 got lost along the way
Jingyi, Sherlyn and agnes!
daddy, uncle caleb and aunty phobe and mummy

bestie with moi...she seems to be having a plate of food whenever i'm taking a pic with her
sam and i sitting in the cupboard..i wonder why we did tt..
liwei and me
Shen Wee, Nicholas aka da jie and pei yun!!
can you see the dai di gamers...good game boys

E175, Peiyun and JO!!!!!!!
my IA xiao chien...baby muacks muacks
i like this pic..cos pauline is holding me! hmm, i like
ceclia, meiting, xiao pang, yong xin, johnathan
Hans Dono...hahaha...
Sheena and Aveline!!!! Love them
ya~~~kawaii! Pei Jin!!!
miss peggie toh aka my bestie...looking pretty while piggin out the entire nighty
in between two tall human beans who happen to be jc classmates
Wang Li Hao asked me to guess which part of him has yellow in it...
"ur socks? underwear? singlet? teeth?"
"No ... its my surname...huang lihao..."
-_-
E175!!
IA mates...they kept playing dai di the whole night
IDs...the early birds..somebody closed her eyes
meiting, me and cecilia!

Constance aka mae idol 2005 and Pauline aka xiao bai
The N270 ladies
family picture outside netheravon terrace F
Daniel, Qiu Ni, Me, Xiao Hui and Yong Tian...i'm sandwiched in between two pairs of couples...


well...thanks to everyone for making it an unforgettable 21st experience!

Saturday, November 25, 2006 ( 10:55 AM )

You Are 70% Feminine, 30% Masculine

You are in touch with your feminine side.
Sensitive, intuitive, and caring are all words that describe you.
And you're just masculine enough to relate to both men and women.
Are You Masculine or Feminine?

deathnote
Saturday, November 18, 2006 ( 11:08 PM )

Yeah~
My L7 has been revived. The brain of my old L7 spoiled (the PCB), and i was so sad that i just sat at my desk and said repeatedly "how? how? my PCB spoil..sniff sniff" Xiao Chien is such a nice and helpful gal, she managed to get a EE engineer from her team to figure out what's wrong with my PCB. That guy didn't do much, but wut he did was very significant. He replaced the old PCB with a new one! Thank God for that...talk about new ghost in a new shell...hurr

Anyway, the author of sillypore said "there is a high possibility that you short-circuit the PCB when you touched some of the capacitors which still have some charges" Well well, serves me and my itchy fingers right...i swear upon this day, to nv dismantle my L7 anymore..

Lately, i've been busy with my attachment report, had to rewrite the format after my supervisor viewed it, man..i hate writing reports..luckily its just 5000 words...i'm finishing soon..(cross my fingers)

Death Note anime is really cool,
The evil but smart and handsome Light Yagami is the main protangonist of the show who tries his hand at playing God; I'm the justice of this world, i will rid the world of all criminals and make it a better world for everyone to live in..

With the help of the Death Note, Light is able to manipulate the details of death of anybody he wishes to kill, provided he knows how the full name and face of the person.

Abusing the power of the Death Note, Light experiments with killing criminals he see on TV and newspapers. When large numbers of criminals started dying of heart attacks for no reason, Light is unknowingly attracting the attention of the police. Overnight, Light assumes a new persona, and Kira is the name. The name Kira is the Japanese pronunciation of the word "Killer" which also holds the meaning of "light".

As Kira continues his massacre of criminals, a detective known as L, seeks to capture Kira and put an end to Kira's evil and selfish ways.

Death Note is really a must see anime, the plot is brain stimulating and there are so many twists and turns that i always get a shock after that. Light is so damn evil...i wonder how he dies in the end...

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L7
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 ( 10:17 PM )

YO minna,
i know i haven't been faithful in updating this blog.
i know you all wanna see my 21st party's pictures, but, i dun have all my pictures yet due to some hindrances..so..be patient..
i've been kinda busy writing my industrial attachment report daily, even after work..gosh..it sucks to be this busy..when there's work to handle in the office and the ia report is naggin at me..begging me to finish it asap..

i'm in the mood for rants tonight..
i single-handedly spoiled my beloved motorola L7.
i'm to be blamed cos i hand itchy..thinking that i have had enuff experience
with dismantling L7 units, i decided to change some internal components in the phone, and i unknowingly spoiled something, probably the PCB of the phone...now, my L7 fail to detect my SIM card even though it is inserted...its like a nightmare to see my own personal L7 fail to power up, after undergoing a major plastic surgery..
i'm damn sad now, no amount of comforting from other pple will make me happy..only reviving my L7 will make me happy..i cried a little on the way home..cos i spoiled this lovely phone that has so much sentimental value.

its my 1st phone that Motorola gave to me, and i worked hard to earn this phone. now tt its spoiled, i'm damn upset. cos i can't play games on my pone, i can't listen to itunes on it, i can't see ayumi hamasaki's wallpaper, and i can't wake myself up to the opening interlude of frail from jars of clay..i can't read all the funny smses tt i locked on my SIM card...i'm damn damn damn sad..i want my L7 back..God pls help me..i beg you..let a miracle happen...Kami sama, tasukete kudasai~

21st bdae
Sunday, November 12, 2006 ( 7:42 PM )

HI everybody!



Its been 2weeks since i had my 21st celebration bdae party celebration...i know... you are dying to see my pictures and i have been dying to lay my hands on them...but no worries...I will slowly upload them when i have all the pictures.


I reached the chalet 5mins later than my carterer..i am so surprised at their efficiency..anyways..i was like a kan cheong queen running all over the place and directing them where to set up my foodie corner.. when everything was done...it was still early before my party started lah.. the food was good, but, i never really sat down to enjoy it. I highly recommend Mum's Kitchen to pple out there if you ever need a carterer for any occassion! Good service, friendly and good food!

one thing i learnt: pple will nv show up @ 5pm, they always turn up @ 63opm onwards

So i tried to kill time and i switched on tv and watched a tamil movie until my guests came...hahaha...while i was doing that, i was feeding the blood suckers too...irritated...

I had a great time mingling with friends and family members..so glad that many pple turned up for my party, i was initially worried that my guests wldn't turn up when none showed up from 5pm to 6pm.

Thanks to




Raymond: my brudder aka jie mei and main photographer and for turning up early!




Mei Ting: my last min stand in photographer when my photographer m.i.a for a short while


Wen Wei: helping me carry out the heavy bowl of desert, carrying out the stools for others, distribute cake for RSPIDians..tks boss



E175(Jo, Liwei, Sam, Peiyun esp): for helping me cut my beautiful cake, clearing my food


Family members (dad, mum, aunty phobe and uncle caleb): for helping me distribute the cake, preparing fruits for everybody to eat





and a big thank you to everybody who came down to celebrate my bdae with me~





Photos:



Family
I LIKE MY CAKE!~
Beloved RSPIDians
NTU Gang
Outing Khakis
City Harvesters Sec Sch Buddies
NYJC-02S2B




OK~ more photos to come~ stay tuned!












Thursday, November 02, 2006 ( 11:20 PM )

A PRAYER FOR THE STRESSED

Grant me the serenity to accept the things, I cannot change

The courage to change the things I cannot accept.

And the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people I had to kill today that pissed me off.

And also, help me to be careful of the toes I step on today as... they may be connected to the ass that I may have to kiss tomorrow.

Help me, to always give 100% at work...
12% on Monday, 23% on Tuesday, 10% on Wednesday, 20% on Thursday and 5% on Friday.

And help me to remember that, when I am having a really bad day and it seems that people are trying to piss me off.

That it takes 42 muscles to frown, and only 1 to extend my middle finger and say bite me.


this quirky message was sent to me by my ia partner who always have to listen to my lamentations about the misfortunes that befall me...i think he's a good listener, cos he keeps real quiet when i'm damn pissed...(scared tt he kenna scolded by me)

Today, a colleague from my department said sth hurtful to me...i always do OT and tire myself bcos i think and do so many experiments and type report out for the department. I know, it is a thankless job, and many times, partner and i stayed behind on our own after 5pm to finish the work.

I was rushing on a project tt is of the utmost priority, just have to dismantle the samples and analyse what went wrong, then i have to rush 3 reports. my partner was busy doing some other project assigned to him by the mentor. den this guy came over and asked what other projects we were doing other than the ones above.

XXX: What other projects do you have @ hand?
ME: PMT, open PMT units and reports
Partner: Mini Loop test, will take the entire morning
XXX: Lidia, how long will you need?
ME: Hopefully before lunchtime
XXX: Wut? You need the entire morning? I do PMT only need half an hour, report oso another half an hour. Something must be wrong. Where got pple do pmt do so long one? unless you're doing other things.

(i suddenly felt the urge to defend myself; and i went into defensive mode straight away, cos he stepped on my toes)
ME: there's nth wrong with me, i just dun wan to promise you sth tt i dunno if i can fulfill. ok, i finish my stuff, i will come to you.

after lunch

XXX: how? are you done with the report oredi?
ME: nope, i m finishing oredi...gimme some more time...
XXX: what's wrong with project X? (gives me a look-down-on-you look)
project X got so mafan meh?

(If everything was this easy to solve, why wld i be doing all the disassembly of the failure units, why wld i be be bothered to take so much effort to think and analyse and ask ard for suggestions? I'm just an IA student, not a professional engineer, not some lao jiao who can do tests and experiments @ the speed of light like superman / superwoman)

(He was implying tt the rate i'm doing things is damn slow; kns; i got 4 units to dismantle and take so many pictures, on top of that, 3 pmt reports to write...i took the entire day to finish everything, and even so, that project wasn't completed bcos the reason for failure was puzzling. even my boss oso cldn't come up with any ideas to pinpoint the reason for failure. AND the fact tt he implied tt i was doing other things instead of what is required of me @ work. tamade. i slogged like a cow @ work, exhaust my thinking cap and physical strength and i get this kind of cocky comment from an insensitive new age guy. i'm not slacking @ work loh..at most i stone for a few seconds..not slack for a few hours can..)

and the entire morning and afternoon (before lunchtime), i was super angry with him and was actually swearing under my breath while i was @ the computer and poor partner have to endure for a while before he escape to the lab to do his mini loop testings.

I am surprised @ the amount of angst tt i have inside of me. I think i'm quick to anger, which is not good. The mere tots of betrayal and deceit from friends and loved ones oso trigger my angst and spoil my morning journeys to work, when i can't fall aslp on the bus. I should forgive and forget, but somehow i got super high memory retention about such incidents. Well, humans are by nature, ugly creatures. I have my moments and i have seen the ugly sides of other pple as well. It is scary to realise that pple just like you and me, are capable of doing hurtful things to one another, be it intentionally or unintentionally. The ugly side of my character has been rearing itself (internally inside of me) quite frequently of late, and sometimes i have to get a hold of myself to prevent tears from coming out of my eyes during those solitary moments of reflection on the bus. I'm beginning to dislike myself more and more, i wanna change for the better, but its not sth tt can be achieved overnight..

Guest List
( 10:12 PM )

Alrighty, 5th nov is my big day! MY 21st bdae party..woo!! The year 2006 beckons the age of official adulthood (but i will still be a kiddy @ heart)!!

I have just compiled my guest list (names shown are those who have confirmed their attendance)

ID: Wen wei
Sherlyn
Agnes
Jing Yi
Chin Ee
Aveline
Sheena
Julius
Jared
Lyndon
Kevin
Shaun

NTU: Cordelia
Dayao
Constance
Weini
Pauline
Raymond
Mei Ting
Hui Ching
Qi Xiang
Dao Ming
Zeng
Cecil
Johnathan

SEC: Pei Yun
Nicholas
Shen Wee

NTU: Cordelia
Dayao
Raymond
Constance
Pauline
Wei Ni
Mei Ting
Cecilia
Zeng
Dao Ming
Hui Ching & Qi Xiang
Johnathan

IA: Brian
Roy
Zhi Wei
Gerald
Dingguo
Chien Ying

CHC: Peggie
Jermyn
Lester
Pei Yun
Liwei
James
Kelvin
Samantha
Pei Jin
Han Kiong
Josefyne
Xiao Hui & Yong Tian
Daniel & Qian Ni
Yee Soon
Terence
Jason



Well, compiling the guest list is the hardest part of the prepartions, cos pple being pple, sometimes forget to reply your sms or reply your email, so me being the kan chiong queen, i will call them up just to make sure. Well, hopefully everything will be alright for my party..yeah..wish me all the best!

ps: to you know who you are; are you avoiding me by not replying my smses? avoiding is not going to solve the problem, ur silence about the entire situation has caused even more hard feelings on my side and if you cherish our friendship enuff, i hope you will do something about it, instead of avoiding me. If you think tt there's no point explaining about the circumstances and what you did, den i'm fine with it. The ball is in your court.

origami 1
( 9:32 PM )

My trainee's bdae was approaching, and she has a thing for handicrafts.
So, i had an idea to make paper origami for the trainee and told all the girls about it.

I happily set out for lunch to meet sheena, chinee, shiyin @ city hall.
apparently, we had $50 pizzahut voucher and everybody cldn't make it, except the
four of us..lol..pizza feast on hari raya..
Hawaiian and Satay flavoured pizzas, drumlets and garlic breads were what we ordered.
Hawaiian is everybody's all time favourite, but satay flavour was kinda weird...imgaine, satay meat on your pizza, topped up with tomato and a little bit of satay sauce..weird taste..

after lunch, everybody went their separate ways, i decided i have to go to BUGIS to shop for my trainee's bdae present. Bumped into Miss meiting @ bugis, what a coincidence! Anyways, I always like to go to ABC shop @ bugis junction. It is actually a stationary shop with lotsa creative ideas, and i found the japanese origami papers there. Bouquet of Lily was the theme, haha, i hardly do origami, so i tot it will be a challenge for me.I went home and tried to figure out the instructions and finally after much trial and error, i got it right


Folded origami flower

curl the petals..tada..chio hor

four more



fold even more


final product

Pity tt when all of us (chen sze's teachers) came together to finish the bouquet, we forgot to take picture..sniff..but it looked almost like the picture on the bouquet..haha..almost