welcome

It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull

Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue

Can you hear me out there?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me

I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes

But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear

Anyone out there hear me now?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips
and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will

OLIVIA inspi' REIRA (Trapnest)
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miyavi
Monday, January 21, 2008 ( 1:11 AM )

Alright, I know this is really random.

But check out

This IZ 雅-miyavi-

(who was originally known as Miyabi which stands for Elegance in Japanese Kanji and currently adopts the name of myv - He's the only artist whom I know changes name really frequently.)
I was just feeling really bored from all the FYP stress and surfed the net to check out this guy called Miyavi.

He is mixed blood, born to a Japanese mom & Korean dad, Korean grandparents came from Jeju Island. He's not afraid to say he's half korean and half japanese, considering the fact discrimination of Korean blooded people still exists in the twentieth century's Japan.

I think he bears a striking resemblance to Kim Hee Chul from Super Junior, and they have something in common: the two of them have the androgynous look. Just that Miyavi has numerous tattoos and piercings all over his body. When I first saw him, I tot OMG, that must have been really painful. What really scared me was that he used the same bright pink shade of nail polish as my toenails on his fingernails!

Miyavi on the left, and Kim Hee Chul on the right


He was the guitarist for a visual kei band, Dué le Quartz which was disbanded in 2002 and is now one of the highly recognised and talented guitarist cum singer in nippon. Visual Kei is a visual style for J rock band artistes who put on elaborate makeup, weird outfits, dramatic hairdos. This is really quirky and is considered as fan service to entertain their FANS. You only get this kind of quirky ideas in the land of Japan.

Example, like this.
(Miyavi is the 2nd person from the left)

This guy has no qualm in wearing skirts, something which majority of the singaporean guys would not think of doing so in public. But then again, there's something about him that oozes self-confidence that suggests that the clothes he wear doesn't define his sexuality, but instead they define who he is, insanely wild and unpredictable just like his music.

After doing this research on Miyavi, I was able to understand why Miyavi wore the clothes he wore, donned the weirdo, ever changing hairstyles. He was a Visual Kei j rocker when he was just 17 and that probably had an enormous influence in his dressing, which can still be seen evidently as part of his daily dressing style which has a fuse of streetwear and still many elements of visual kei aspects.

I think he's really interesting to watch. So watch him. I bet you all saw him before on my blog, cos he won my respect by playing the guitar so skillfully and flawlessly. Gasps. (Remember Selfish love?) My first impression of this guy was.....man.....he looks satanic...






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cordy's store
Saturday, January 19, 2008 ( 10:01 PM )

YAHOO!

This is how you should pronounce "yahoo" YA (Di yi Shen 1) HOO( whoo), the japanese way.

Muhaha.

Anyways, Life's been hectic. FYP consumes my life, attention and majority of the time when I'm awake. I wish I had more time, cos i haven't complete half of the experiments. It's gross. I pray I will be safe and healthy and wouldn't any illness or damage after my fyp, as there is one certain experiment that requires me to be exposed to hazardous chemicals. GOD please be with me, so i wouldn't get lung cancer, blind my eyes or scar my hands or get skin diseases.

Anyway, last week I helped out at cordelia's bazaar booth for her virgin real life store for 2 days.
It isn't my first time doing this kind of sales, I was forced to sell stuff for my dad when I was in my secondary school days. But all is well, it's all in the past oredi.

Remembering how I often get scoldings my dad, was really one negative experience. I had to be more alert as there were alot of pickpockets. There was once, I had an item (couldn't remember if it was a sunglass or spectacles handkerchief) stolen from right under my nose. How terrible.

The 2 malay uncles were patronising my store and asking me qns abt the price and stuff and were quite fussy about the goods. The aunty next to my store kept asking me to be alert, as she knew they were up to no good, keen observation. I was just tired, can't be bothered. I think I sold them sunglasses, and they were complaining why dun have packaging and cloth, (they bought cheaper ones, not provided mah), then they asked me to pass them the cloth to wipe. Then they looked at other stuff and took their own sweet time and tried to distract me with other questions, and then they paid money and went off. I didn't remember about the cloth, so they kept quiet abt it, took it, hid inside their pockets and walked away.

Ltr, the aunty next store scolded me and told me how they stole the cloth away..she could see thru their tactics. I was pretty upset about it, cos it was my fault and also bcos I didn't understand why would anybody want to steal specs cloth. They are such Cheapos and the best part of it was, they stole during the festival when they were supposed to be fasting and trying to be "clean" from sin.

Anyway, yes, cordy's business was really good. Thanks to friends who came down to support (Shiyin, Diana, Geraldine and Meiting)! Muacks, ai si ni men le. Then there are those who came by and kept asking "how much are the designer ducks? are they for sale? how much is the clock?", qian bian lehz.

Yeah, cordy was really busy, her business was so good that she had to keep making new earrings and bracelets and necklaces, but still she couldn't keep up with replacing newly sold jewelleries. So the supplies diminished by the end of each day, with more space on the table for decorations. Yup, I like her designs and you should too cos they are all unique and one of a kind. Un-matching earrings and GOLD are her signature style. Unique filigrees imported from australia, united states and intricate japanese beads and other stuff are often used! Do watch her blog for updates every a month!

http://rufflesmypigtails.blogspot.com - just click on the animated banner lah!









Sunday, January 13, 2008 ( 11:25 AM )

This is really funny.
I've been complaining to my friend about how much I have spent on online shopping stuff lately.

I think I'm addicted to online shopping. It seems like I have to browse those online shopping blog shops daily, just to check if there's any new updates or stocks coming in. I even memorized all the nice blog shops url.

When I asked him if I should buy another blouse that I saw online, he said "Buy lah. Next time dun buy le."

Then he went to draft this excel sheet for me and titled it "lidia's wastefulness", stating all the items that I splurged on in the month of January. Muhaha. YES, Lidia, WAKE UP UR IDEA.



Lab tech.
Friday, January 11, 2008 ( 10:01 PM )

HI ALL!

Long time no blog.
Hurr, actually I've been more active @ my LJ blog shop, trying to sell my 2nd hand clothes but to no avail.

Well, we shall see.
I have ideas but no time to implement them.

Today I was really pissed by this particular Lab Technician in my school. I wanted to book the Instron equipment, went down to the lab to check out the dimensions of some critical features that I needed to tally as I had to fit a dolly into the Instron machine. I was talking to my friend who was doing her FYP at the instron machine and this super ZHUAI lab tech came over.

I gave him a weak smile, cos he was looking at me,
then he enquired "Are you in the same FYP as her?"

"No." was my answer.

He gave out a smirk and said "You are going to use the Instron machine? Too late."

"I just dun understand why you FYP students like to start your fyp once the semester start. Other fyp students like her oredi started to collect data since December holidays. We will be running alot of projects on the Instron once school reopens, and you haven't even go through any training. You wldn't be able to make it. You want to use ah? Go tissue engineering lab there loh, use those instron without any training lah." He complained exasperatedly to me, as if I'm some dumb-good-for-nothing-bitch who wants to make more trouble for him.

Wah lau, my fault ah?!? If you all know, the external company I worked with for the fyp, delayed the start of my fyp for 1 entire semester. MY FAULT AH? Wang Ba Dan. I'm trying my best to finish my stuff since start of December. I had to redo cos I messed up one important parameter. WAH LAU! I'm trying my best ok? I'm not a slacker who doesn't care about FYP. I CARE HOR, i care so much that I can't fall aslp sometimes.

The very freaking moment he said that, I felt a rush of different emotions going through me.
Panic. "What!?! How can tt be?"
Worry. "DEN HOW?"
Pessimistic. "FYP die liao."
Sad. "I'm gonna fail, and not graduate with at least a 2nd upper honours."
Anger. "tamade, who are you to say i can't use the instron machine."

I was so angry, that i felt blood rushing to my face, as if steam would come out from my head. (muhahaha) I was so pissed that I wanted to cry. But I controlled my facial expressions and tried to look nonchalant when I replied him.
"the external company started me off late." was all i could manage, trying hard not to break my mask of nonchalantness, and not to cry as I replied him.
"There was another student in the same situation, the company started him late." He tried to smile and walked away.

I get angry easily. But I seldom get so pissed that I want to cry.
I can remember there are only 2 times when I get so angry that I want to cry.
Once was Jermyn, screamed at him and i nearly broke down and cry after my outblast.
Now, is this bastard. I offended you ah. Idiot.
I wouldn't die, I will make it and score wonderfully well for my FYP. you jus wait and see.
Shame on you. So old liao, EQ still so low. Pui.

http://7thgalaxy.livejournal.com/
Wednesday, January 02, 2008 ( 2:14 AM )

OH HI!

I spent the entire day taking pictures of the clothes that I want to sell 2nd hand!
Managed to get a LJ blog up, that sells my 2nd hand clothes. Go over and see if you like anything or help to spread the word or give me ur comments so I can improve the layout or wadever.
http://7thgalaxy.livejournal.com/


DEAD tired

Actually, I have alot more clothes, but i bu se de to sell them, cos all so nice looking. But i nv wear. haha. impulse shopping = waste $, nv wear all the clothes you buy.

Haiz. I've been photo shopping alot lately (window shopping online). There ARE TONNES OF blogshops out there. Some made it big, some only managed to create a ripple effect. Online shopping is really hit or miss, irritating cos sometimes the designs that you really like are snatched up like hot dogs! I found ALOT of very very nice blogshops. Next time I will intro to you guys. HEEHEE.. GOT BAGS de blogshops WOR! I love it~~ but i haven't buy yet. I will think very carefully which one I want.. MUhahahaha...SO HAPPY!