welcome

It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull

Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue

Can you hear me out there?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me

I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes

But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear

Anyone out there hear me now?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips
and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will

OLIVIA inspi' REIRA (Trapnest)
WINTER SLEEP



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unrequitted love
Monday, July 16, 2007 ( 1:17 PM )

Yesterday night, I got really upset. I have been receiving unwanted attention from a certain somebody, and I didn't enjoy it, cos everytime he talked to me on msn, I got really upset. I dunno why, but my blood really boiled each time he probed me on certain stuff. After a very serious exchange of opinions about marriage and r/s that involved me falling in love with non-christian guys, I really felt like my privacy was intruded by his senseless tactlessness and totally didn't see eye to eye with his views about marriage as just a word.

Marriage to most people, is not just a word, but a social contract between two people and it requires them to be committed to each other and love each other through life, death, illness and poverty. IMHO, love is to accept a person just the way he is. To accept his past, his good, his bad, his everything. I dun believe that love can change a person's bad habits. Change only occurs when a person is determined to stop repeating the things that are bringing about harm and unhappiness to him and the people around him.

As cliched as it may sound, that was what i learnt in church and i adhere these meanings to "marriage" and "love" strongly. Have you ever loved somebody so strongly that you wanted to be his/hers for the rest of your life? If you dun wan to marry the person whom you are with now, it means that you dun love him/her enough or that he/she is not the one who is truly compatible with you. Why waste each other's time, heartfelt emotions and money by getting into a r/s that is doomed for failure? When self-deception is removed from your sight, when reality strikes you, that is when you will realise that you have set urself up for a horrible heartbreak. An emotional wreckage that you will remember for life. You think everybody can be like Romeo and Juliet meh? Sorry, I dun wan my life to be so tragic that it becomes the modern day, world renowned love-tragedy that it actually rivals William Shakespears' Classic: Romeo & Juliet.