It's half past two in the morning, and i'm so drained emotionally. So tired of being so vulnerable. So tired of pursuing after my ideals and desires. I love you shin shin, thanks for being there and always offering your opinions and comforting my frazzled brain and heart.

Shin Shin, if i'm a guy, i will woo you!!! No kidding!! Sarangaeyo! Originally my junior and partner in crime in taking care of trainee chen sze, she has risen above the occassion to become the new Coordinator of RSPID. Yes, with great power, comes responsibilites. Girl, dun hate me for being so interrogative during your election. But, I'm damn proud of ya when you were elected to be in the main com and chosen to be the new coordinator. I know it's not easy for ya, probably bcos, you have the feeling of being forced to grow up and being the solution giver all of a sudden. But, yup, when u're tired, dun forget that i'm there for you, like how you are always there for me, even when u're damn damn damn tired and busy. I offer you my ears to listen to wadever you have to say, and my arms to give you a big big hug when u're sad or tired. Yup, i love you dearly as my friend and sister. MUACKS! Jiayou!! Ya lah, i know you got other lovers too. Dun worry, i'm very understanding one, we can all love each other...right, jing jing?

Not forgetting the rest of my lovers out there at RSPID (jing jing esp), i love you guys! But pls continue to come down for sat session every week! I miss the girly cutie LuLu, welcome back!

Anyway, I changed my mind about banqueting and decided to continue doing it, cos i need cash urgently. Yeah, i know, you just imagined seeing dollar signs in my eyes together with the sound of "ching" the money register ringing in the background. It's not that hard after all, it's just that i need to carry more weights and train my arm muscles. (flexing my arms)

My good moods were spoiled after coming back from dinner with Eugene. I became quite moody after reading pern ren's blog (http://potandtable.blogspot.com/) and my stomach wasn't feeling that fantastic maybe bcos my gastric juices were acting up again. I didn't mind being mentioned in the blog but i didn't like how the other girl second guessed my character and actions. There were many nuggets of truth that were mentioned in the argument but I just can't stomach this. I know i shouldn't be easily affected by other people's criticism and opinions, but i think i need to let it out, if not i will explode.

To the girl, "So what if you are a staunch and hardcore christian, do you have any idea abt what you're saying about my integrity and my intentions? I wasn't making use of Pern Ren financially or emotionally. I didn't! Things just didn't work out btwn us and i dun have to explain the reason to the likes of people like you. Yes, i am no longer a staunch and on-fire christian who used to love God wholeheartedly, but that doesn't give you the authority to condemn and judge others. Judge others and be judged urself. Condemnation comes from the devil. God is love and He loves and accepts everybody just the way they are. He washes away the sins of the repented one and forgets about his sins. There is new life and new beginning in Christ. The ultimate aim of Christianity is such that all who have sinned, will come to know about Jesus and accept Him into their hearts and be rescued from the eternal burning flames of hell. Stop condemning other pple who dun wan to accept christianity. Your job as a christian is to show love and be a living example of Jesus Christ among unbelievers. Be the salt and light of the world. Are you really being an ambassador for Christ or making other pple turned off by Christianity?"