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Tuesday, July 31, 2007 ( 12:51 AM )
Tossing and turning in bed, wldn't guarantee me any slp that I desire at the moment, so here i'm. Tonight is one of the nights that I feel a little bit lost in this big, unknown world.
Trying to get a glimpse of me in 1st year's time, I can vaguely imagine myself graduating from NTU Mechanical Engineering with a (hopefully) 2nd upper honours degree. I'm trying to visualise what kind of career I'll be heading to. Teacher? Engineer? Or something else? Property agent? I dunno. DUH.
Originally, I wanted to become a piano teacher, but I buang-ed my piano practical grade 7 twice bcos I had sweaty palms whenever I played my pieces and scales in front of the examiner and I slipped too many countless times. Being quite disappointed at my failures and not having enough time to concentrate on both my studies and piano, I decided to focus on my studies instead. I still play the piano everynow and then, however, only whimsically. I'll not be able to achieve the level of standard that Nodame and Chiaki have achieved in Nodame Cantabile. Playing classical music was a torture for me back then, not getting the beats right and not being able to feel the music from my own heart was downright upsetting. Nodame Cantabile (anime) gave me so much interesting insight as to how people can have some much passion about classical music and I realised I'm the one to be blamed for not putting much effort on my own foundation and technique.
I'm slightly petrified by my own FYP, Electrostatic Powder Spray Coating on Curved Surfaces. Heck, I haven't got the slightest idea what it is all about. Hmm, I hope I do well and put in lotsa effort to figure out the solution to the challenge of my own FYP.
I just finished watching "My boss, my hero" drama series and it is quite a hilarious drama. I'm quite surprised that Japanese students only require a minimum score of 30 points for each subject to graduate from high school. Damn slack lah. I think it's nothing compared to Singapore's O Levels and the sebei scary L1R4 & L1R5. A levels was worse, much much worse.
Anyway, the subtle theme of the entire drama was to bring the message "School is fun, school is the place where you experience and learn many different things." The protagonist in question, is a yakuza-heir-to-be (黑帮少爷）who was forced to go to high school by his own father and head of the yakuza gang, as part of the requirement to become the next yakuza boss in line, because the protagonist only has the brawns but not the brains. He had to hide his real identity and behave like a normal student in school, initially it was torture for him, but as time goes by, he realised that he actually enjoyed going to school.
He always questioned about the need to go to school as 1. he was a yakuza, 2. he didn't understand wut the heck the teachers were teaching, 3. he didn't enjoy going to sch. Later He began to realise that it is school where he is able to experience friendship with his classmates, experience his first love, experience the discovery of being able to understand academic stuff, experience his first victory in obtaining the ever-lusterous Saint Agnes' pudding, etc. Of cos, he also experiened a lot of heartaches and headaches bcos of the above mentioned issues. Very cliched right, but I think it is really true. In 1 year's time, I'll be part of the working society and no longer able to retain my rights as student. Means I can't buy student concession for travelling purposes or buy student meal or enjoy student privileges in 1 year's time!!!!!
I seriously feel very uncertain about my own future and I wished that the holidays didn't disappear so quickly. I wished that I was more daring in the past to try out part-time jobs. I wished I was more street-wise so I wouldn't be so "gong gong" today. I wished God made me more fluent in my expression of speech and that I wasn't so naive. I wished for so many things that couldn't possibly happen to me. I wished that I could turn back time and rewrite my past and erase all the unfortunate and unhappy events that occurred in these recent 2-3 years.
Regrets and unfulfilled desires floods my head, emptiness echos through my soul, adding to my heart's resounding blues. But, I'm thankful for everything that happened, bcos thru them, I learnt to be strong, emotionally and mentally. I think I had the most enjoyable holiday ever as an undergraduate. Fulfilling my new year's resolution to do my part for the Intelletucally Disabled from RSPID and taking up new part time jobs which I previously hated (tuition & banquet), was indeed a challenge to my old-self and a splendid and wonderful experience which I will cherish and relish, everytime I look back.
Originally, I wanted to become a piano teacher, but I buang-ed my piano practical grade 7 twice bcos I had sweaty palms whenever I played my pieces and scales in front of the examiner and I slipped too many countless times. Being quite disappointed at my failures and not having enough time to concentrate on both my studies and piano, I decided to focus on my studies instead. I still play the piano everynow and then, however, only whimsically. I'll not be able to achieve the level of standard that Nodame and Chiaki have achieved in Nodame Cantabile. Playing classical music was a torture for me back then, not getting the beats right and not being able to feel the music from my own heart was downright upsetting. Nodame Cantabile (anime) gave me so much interesting insight as to how people can have some much passion about classical music and I realised I'm the one to be blamed for not putting much effort on my own foundation and technique.
I'm slightly petrified by my own FYP, Electrostatic Powder Spray Coating on Curved Surfaces. Heck, I haven't got the slightest idea what it is all about. Hmm, I hope I do well and put in lotsa effort to figure out the solution to the challenge of my own FYP.
I just finished watching "My boss, my hero" drama series and it is quite a hilarious drama. I'm quite surprised that Japanese students only require a minimum score of 30 points for each subject to graduate from high school. Damn slack lah. I think it's nothing compared to Singapore's O Levels and the sebei scary L1R4 & L1R5. A levels was worse, much much worse.
Anyway, the subtle theme of the entire drama was to bring the message "School is fun, school is the place where you experience and learn many different things." The protagonist in question, is a yakuza-heir-to-be (黑帮少爷）who was forced to go to high school by his own father and head of the yakuza gang, as part of the requirement to become the next yakuza boss in line, because the protagonist only has the brawns but not the brains. He had to hide his real identity and behave like a normal student in school, initially it was torture for him, but as time goes by, he realised that he actually enjoyed going to school.
He always questioned about the need to go to school as 1. he was a yakuza, 2. he didn't understand wut the heck the teachers were teaching, 3. he didn't enjoy going to sch. Later He began to realise that it is school where he is able to experience friendship with his classmates, experience his first love, experience the discovery of being able to understand academic stuff, experience his first victory in obtaining the ever-lusterous Saint Agnes' pudding, etc. Of cos, he also experiened a lot of heartaches and headaches bcos of the above mentioned issues. Very cliched right, but I think it is really true. In 1 year's time, I'll be part of the working society and no longer able to retain my rights as student. Means I can't buy student concession for travelling purposes or buy student meal or enjoy student privileges in 1 year's time!!!!!
I seriously feel very uncertain about my own future and I wished that the holidays didn't disappear so quickly. I wished that I was more daring in the past to try out part-time jobs. I wished I was more street-wise so I wouldn't be so "gong gong" today. I wished God made me more fluent in my expression of speech and that I wasn't so naive. I wished for so many things that couldn't possibly happen to me. I wished that I could turn back time and rewrite my past and erase all the unfortunate and unhappy events that occurred in these recent 2-3 years.
Regrets and unfulfilled desires floods my head, emptiness echos through my soul, adding to my heart's resounding blues. But, I'm thankful for everything that happened, bcos thru them, I learnt to be strong, emotionally and mentally. I think I had the most enjoyable holiday ever as an undergraduate. Fulfilling my new year's resolution to do my part for the Intelletucally Disabled from RSPID and taking up new part time jobs which I previously hated (tuition & banquet), was indeed a challenge to my old-self and a splendid and wonderful experience which I will cherish and relish, everytime I look back.