Have you ever had nights when you find urself mentally drained from a hard day's work and yet you toss and turn in bed for more than 1 hour, hoping tt you will go to zzz land in 5 mins.

Man, today is one of those days for me. I dunno what to say. Nights when i have insomnia are the nights when my roomie return late (3-4am) or dun return at all. Odd right, she's not even my best friend, and i'm so concerned. I'm not sure either. It is just that i wanna slp in peace knowing tt she has returned and i wldn't be disturbed by her in the wee hours of the morning when light from the corridor shines into the room cos its too bright to switch on the light, so she opens the door. Well, i dunno, maybe i have turned into a light sleeper in these recent months. I can't slp well with noise and light. Well, i figured it cld probably be the acne medication tt's causing insomnia for me, but i only eat it like twice a week. It's weird right?

I seek rest, but it eludes me. Shucks, God give me my slp. If i dun slp, i will fall sick. If i fall sick, tt's it. How to study well for exams which is less than 2 weeks time? I wanna go home oredi. This is mad. I went home last friday and came back today. I'm missing mummy and daddy oredi. I miss the pillows and bed @ home real bad, tt i even brought in 1 pillowcase from home to hug. I miss my room. I miss slping @ home. Home is like a place to relax, tt's why studying @ home isn't that productive.

I'm so sad tt i wanna cry now. I think i shld go cry and cry real bad then i will fall aslp real fast. I can't believe i'm still awake @ 5am, complaining here and trying to read heat transfer notes at the same time. I really dunno what to do, i wish i was a baby who dun even have any concerns abt the everyday life.

Just last thursday, i had another bout of insomnia. I dreamt i was doing force analysis for the virtual moments and real moments for mp3002. I cldn't stop my brain from finding virtual moments. It's like there is a online lecture going on inside my brain and i'm presented with a complex structure that makes me wanna resolve all the moments. That was really a nightmare. I cldn't slp. I walked abt in the room, went to the toilet several times, read max lucado's travelling light for 2 hours before i dozed off in about 15mins. Then i had a dream of carrying a big fat baby and bringing her to somewhere and i was damn happy inside the dream and yes, i slpt @ 5am then, and decided i had to go home the next day.

GUESS what, when i reached home the next day, i saw the baby girl at my house! She is my mum's customer's baby girl. It was such a coincidence that I saw her the next day after dreaming about carrying her. I was so happy tt i just played with her for two hours straight. She ain't a baby/toddler compared to the last time i saw her, she is now 28 months old. She looks just exactly like her mother and she talks in such a cute and soft voice that it is irresistable to not want to play with her. She has alot of picture books, and she wld read the title of the books out and when i try to read the rest of the stories, she say, "no more, nothing to see" and try to close the books. Her favourite VCD is her dad's annual dinner and dance vcd. When prompted by my dad, "why do you like this VCD?"

She said, "Got tong tong qiang, lion dance jump very high!" DAMN cute, i tell you.

I think she talks a little like lucinda, just tt her voice is softer and pronounciation not tt clear yet. Damn cute right? imgaine lucinda talking when she was younger, i think i will jus pinch her loh. Lucinda you are so cute, not ugly but very adorable.