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Review
Thursday, December 21, 2006 ( 10:05 AM )
It's been a long time since i ever updated my blog. Guess life's been mundane after the official ending of my attachment. It's easy to guess what i've been busy with lately.
1. Watching tonnes of J-drama tt features Takuya Kimura
2. Watching tonnes of anime like Gunslinger Girls, D.Gray-man, Death Note, Saiyuki Reload n Gunlock, School Rumble 2, Alice School etc etc
3. Reading novels that i borrowed from the NLB when the computer isn't on
4. Going out with some friends and chatting on msn
5. Reading Fruit Basket Manga to cheer me up
This is the routine stuff for me, before the next sch term starts. I'm just gonna do wadever i want and d/l lotsa stuff asap..
With so much time at home, one tends to reminisce about the past, consider different viewpoints about the confusing and sudden events that had happened in the span of 6 months. Its easy to get upset and start blaming others for all that have happened, come to think of it, i have to say, i had a hand in the turn of events that led to my "downfall" today.
At the end of every year, i would reflect on my life. This year wasn't a very good year for me in the area of r/s. Even though i made mistakes and got hurt in the process, it was definitely an eye opener for me. I wldn't say i have matured, but i got to see the ugly side of some pple whom i always tot were my good confidants. And tt's a amazing revelation of how truly horrible the human race can be. Well, i bet there are more grotesque examples, like the psychotic killer or a serial rapist who murders his victims slowly to death. In my own definition, i find pple who have a mindset to lie, cheat and manipulate, HORRIBLE.
Lesson Learnt
1. Not all your good guy friends can be a good bf or good husband.
This is true, bcos some pple aren't ready to settle down and wanna explore the possibilities of shagging different girls/guys and enjoy the fun without the commitment and responsibility. Some pple have the gift of gab and that allows them to get away with lotsa stuff, but not for long. They tell you words or do things that resonate so wonderfully in your stupid head that you think that they truly love you, but in actual fact, they're just playing with you, to see how you will react to their honey coated words or words that mean nothing to them.
2. Some guys can fake whole r/s.
ok, i saw this quote on the straits times. It was quoted by Sharon Stone who said "Girls can fake orgasms, but guys can fake whole relationships." How true. Like wut i said, some pple are out to play. A relationship or rather fake commitment to a girl/guy is a means to an end.
3. Stop jumping into r/s when u dun even know the other party well enuff.
So what if you know that person for 6 years or 10 years, do you really know him/her inside out? The duration of time is not equals to how well you know the person's character. Entering a r/s without even getting to know the other party well enuff, is well, disaster for the soul. Human beings are complicated pple with complex characteristics and thinkings. You probably need a lot of time to know the person better. Find out his/her agenda, intentions, beliefs, mindsets, interests or wadever u think is a must have to sync in future.
4. Pple change easily, bcos change is the only constant in this fucked up world.
One moment you're in love, the other moment without you realising, he/she tells you its over. WHY? No feelings liao loh. Dun think got a future with you anymore. So dun get ur hopes up too high, cos u gonna get disappointed like shit, when it happens. We will never know what tomorrow holds for us. Feelings change and pple move on. Even when you still love them, they probably dun love you anymore, cos they have oredi moved on and are happily attached with somebody else whom you cldn't believe can surpass you.
5. Choose your friends carefully. Choose your confidant carefully. Cos, you nv noe when they will turn their back against you.
I nv tot this particular friend of mine will betray me. To think i trusted 'em with all the secrets tt i nv shared and the next moment 'em turned ard and told you tt 'em snatched away the love of your life. Whoever knew what 'em told him when they got together. It makes you sick to think tt u trusted 'em so much..and this is the kind of shit you get for trusting 'em. Usosuki Musume.
The best part was "tell me all his weakness so that i can exploit him".
me: "Go figure it out urself.!@#$#@$#@$%$~!"
I dunno if the person meant it as a joke. But that was the final straw that broke the camel's back. I nv knew anybody else who can say such a cutting statement as a joke. So u chose a guy over our friendship. Thanks. You made the right choice anyway. I always regarded u as a good friend but i guess, u nv really regarded me as one. Thinking back, you always clamped up on the sensitive topics that revolved ard you, nv allowing me into your life. That was why you cld betray my trust so easily.
6. Dun Lie! Trust is not something that you can redeem back so easily. Once lost, forever gone.
The truth will set you free. The truth may hurt, but telling a white lie to cover up the entire situation is worse. Yes, you are worried that i will be upset..but, a lie is still a lie, and it cost me to lose my trust for u 2. I can't believe tt someone i loved so much in the past and someone whom i trusted so much cld actually gang up and lie to me.
END of Lesson
Yes, i may seem to be a narrow-minded person, well tt's me. I guess the only thing tt's left to do is to forget and forgive, but with so much angst inside of me, I guess it will take a long time. So in the meantime, I will seek refuge in the humor and tales of Fruit Basket Manga. I know that i've changed. I seriously think that my heart is slowly closing up to prevent myself from getting hurt again. So, dun come near me.
1. Watching tonnes of J-drama tt features Takuya Kimura
2. Watching tonnes of anime like Gunslinger Girls, D.Gray-man, Death Note, Saiyuki Reload n Gunlock, School Rumble 2, Alice School etc etc
3. Reading novels that i borrowed from the NLB when the computer isn't on
4. Going out with some friends and chatting on msn
5. Reading Fruit Basket Manga to cheer me up
This is the routine stuff for me, before the next sch term starts. I'm just gonna do wadever i want and d/l lotsa stuff asap..
With so much time at home, one tends to reminisce about the past, consider different viewpoints about the confusing and sudden events that had happened in the span of 6 months. Its easy to get upset and start blaming others for all that have happened, come to think of it, i have to say, i had a hand in the turn of events that led to my "downfall" today.
At the end of every year, i would reflect on my life. This year wasn't a very good year for me in the area of r/s. Even though i made mistakes and got hurt in the process, it was definitely an eye opener for me. I wldn't say i have matured, but i got to see the ugly side of some pple whom i always tot were my good confidants. And tt's a amazing revelation of how truly horrible the human race can be. Well, i bet there are more grotesque examples, like the psychotic killer or a serial rapist who murders his victims slowly to death. In my own definition, i find pple who have a mindset to lie, cheat and manipulate, HORRIBLE.
Lesson Learnt
1. Not all your good guy friends can be a good bf or good husband.
This is true, bcos some pple aren't ready to settle down and wanna explore the possibilities of shagging different girls/guys and enjoy the fun without the commitment and responsibility. Some pple have the gift of gab and that allows them to get away with lotsa stuff, but not for long. They tell you words or do things that resonate so wonderfully in your stupid head that you think that they truly love you, but in actual fact, they're just playing with you, to see how you will react to their honey coated words or words that mean nothing to them.
2. Some guys can fake whole r/s.
ok, i saw this quote on the straits times. It was quoted by Sharon Stone who said "Girls can fake orgasms, but guys can fake whole relationships." How true. Like wut i said, some pple are out to play. A relationship or rather fake commitment to a girl/guy is a means to an end.
3. Stop jumping into r/s when u dun even know the other party well enuff.
So what if you know that person for 6 years or 10 years, do you really know him/her inside out? The duration of time is not equals to how well you know the person's character. Entering a r/s without even getting to know the other party well enuff, is well, disaster for the soul. Human beings are complicated pple with complex characteristics and thinkings. You probably need a lot of time to know the person better. Find out his/her agenda, intentions, beliefs, mindsets, interests or wadever u think is a must have to sync in future.
4. Pple change easily, bcos change is the only constant in this fucked up world.
One moment you're in love, the other moment without you realising, he/she tells you its over. WHY? No feelings liao loh. Dun think got a future with you anymore. So dun get ur hopes up too high, cos u gonna get disappointed like shit, when it happens. We will never know what tomorrow holds for us. Feelings change and pple move on. Even when you still love them, they probably dun love you anymore, cos they have oredi moved on and are happily attached with somebody else whom you cldn't believe can surpass you.
5. Choose your friends carefully. Choose your confidant carefully. Cos, you nv noe when they will turn their back against you.
I nv tot this particular friend of mine will betray me. To think i trusted 'em with all the secrets tt i nv shared and the next moment 'em turned ard and told you tt 'em snatched away the love of your life. Whoever knew what 'em told him when they got together. It makes you sick to think tt u trusted 'em so much..and this is the kind of shit you get for trusting 'em. Usosuki Musume.
The best part was "tell me all his weakness so that i can exploit him".
me: "Go figure it out urself.!@#$#@$#@$%$~!"
I dunno if the person meant it as a joke. But that was the final straw that broke the camel's back. I nv knew anybody else who can say such a cutting statement as a joke. So u chose a guy over our friendship. Thanks. You made the right choice anyway. I always regarded u as a good friend but i guess, u nv really regarded me as one. Thinking back, you always clamped up on the sensitive topics that revolved ard you, nv allowing me into your life. That was why you cld betray my trust so easily.
6. Dun Lie! Trust is not something that you can redeem back so easily. Once lost, forever gone.
The truth will set you free. The truth may hurt, but telling a white lie to cover up the entire situation is worse. Yes, you are worried that i will be upset..but, a lie is still a lie, and it cost me to lose my trust for u 2. I can't believe tt someone i loved so much in the past and someone whom i trusted so much cld actually gang up and lie to me.
END of Lesson
Yes, i may seem to be a narrow-minded person, well tt's me. I guess the only thing tt's left to do is to forget and forgive, but with so much angst inside of me, I guess it will take a long time. So in the meantime, I will seek refuge in the humor and tales of Fruit Basket Manga. I know that i've changed. I seriously think that my heart is slowly closing up to prevent myself from getting hurt again. So, dun come near me.