welcome

It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull

Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue

Can you hear me out there?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me

I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the moves it makes

But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear

Anyone out there hear me now?

Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Kiss my lips
and maybe you can take me to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now Hold me now My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will

OLIVIA inspi' REIRA (Trapnest)
WINTER SLEEP



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pian tai san
Friday, October 06, 2006 ( 12:28 AM )

today, i had a freakish phone encounter with an odd man.
I was watching Full Metal Panic in the evening, which is my usual routine after work, and no one was @ home...So, i was in the middle of an exciting episode and was interruptered from a phone call..

hello? may i speak to andrew..this is XXX

he's not at home..he has gone overseas..

which part of the world he has gone to?

china.

can i have a contact number tt i can call to?

(i wasn't sure if he really knew my dad, cos if he knew my dad...he will call his HP)
no, i dunno any number

who is this? how are u related to andrew?

his daughter

oh, i must have seen you den, in church of singapore...i went there with ur dad

haha..no, i dun go to COS.

u dun go to church with your parents? den where do you go?

City Harvest Church

where is that? how to get there?

blah blah blah
(means instructions not tt main pt)

why City harvest church?

cos its charismatic, lively and fun

can you elaborate on charismatic?

blah blah blah...

oh..so how's ur walk with GOD?

not so good, i'm lukewarm

oh my, tell me why you're lukewarm, and how old are you? what is ur name?

(huh? dun talk to me like u're my friend when i'm jus a stranger to you)
after a long pause,
my mind went thru many thought processes and finally answered
call me miss teo and i'm 18-19 yrs old and
er, i dun wan to tell you, cos this is really some private stuff.

why? tell me...you mus...ur reply can help many other youngsters with their lives...you know, you are at a very dangerous age of your life...your flesh will respond to ur mind @ ur age, while @ my age (40+), my mind will respond to my flesh...do you know wut i'm saying?

er..yes..kinda...but i dun wan to say...

(anyway, as time passes, i was getting kind of scared...bcos some old jijisan was trying to get me to talk abt my personal life to him...and i dun even know him...and he suddenly begun to talk in a ghostly manner...trying to achieve some GODLY effect)

jus treat this like a survey, if you must, and when u say u're lukewarm, it means u're going to hell...and no matter how pple rebuke u, beat u, persuade u, it doesn't change the fact tt u're still going to hell..why dun u treat me like a spirit...a spirit who u dunno and wants to help u?

tt's a very scary idea....hahaha

(and he continues to badger me with.."tell me...nonono..tell me")

finally, lau niang cannot take it anymore...

i'm very very scared...and i really dun wan to tell you abt my personal stuff..er...i got a incoming call and i gotta take it...

can i call you ltr?

no, dun..i dun wan you to call me..ya...okie..goodbye



hurr.......scared the hell out of me...anyway i was freaked out...but FMP was awaiting me..so i went back to view it anyways...and my dad called me...and i verified with him whether he knew tt guy who called...and daddy said,"izzit the talk weird weird guy? dun bother abt him, eh, my flight to china is delayed.."

To prevent tt weird jijisan from harrassing me any further, i hung up the phone, took it off its cradle..ltr after 2 hours, i put the phone back..thinking tt jijisan wld have gave up on his "mission" to preach and harrass me..but i was wrong..he called again..and i was thinking whether it was him or my dad...and i didn't want to miss any calls from my dad..so i picked it up

hello? this is XXX, andrew's friend..andrew called me earlier on to inform me tt his flight was delayed...did he tell you anything after that?

NO.

can i have changi airport's number?

i dun have it, why dun u check out the internet urself? okie..bye`


DAMN...freaked me out like mad...he spoke in such a weird ghostly manner...and i was seriously spooked out...i hope its not some pian tai stalker...who harrass me using the phone and ltr stalk me when i go to work...hurr..